I’m not being sarcastic with my title of this blog. I am in a three day training course at work, entitled “Delivery of Instruction for Classroom Facilitators.” It’s only the end of day one and I’m loving it! I have given training at work for a few courses over the last couple of years, and I’m looking forward to providing more in the future. Who would have thought that the once shy, timid little me, who always walked with her head down and had anxiety attacks from the thought of answering the phone at work, would ever get so much enjoyment out of standing in front of a class, providing training?! This is one aspect of my life that I decided to change very soon after I was diagnosed with MS. I was sick of being so timid and so extremely nervous all the time. I made the decision that I wouldn’t waste time, energy and emotional resources on being this type of person. This is one of the best changes I ever decided to make. I love being outgoing, social and confident! I can honestly say that I no longer get nervous providing answers in class or getting up in front of a group to speak. The funny thing is that although I don’t feel nervous, I still get the physical shakes. I noticed when I got up in front of the people in my course today that my hands were shaking quite a bit. I’m wondering if this was because I’ve been feeling so weak lately, since I’m going through a bit of an emotional time regarding some family issues and concerns at work. Unfortunately, to deal with the emotional side of things, I’ve been punishing myself physically. This weekend alone, I did about three hours on my exercise bike. I also haven’t had much of an appetite. Perhaps the shakies I was experiencing today were my body’s way of saying “Hello! Smarten up and take better care of me!” Actually, my friend at work expressed her concern for how I’ve been feeling, which is showing in my face. I look rather tired, stressed and worn down. The good thing is that I can go as a stressed tax collector for Halloween! BOO! I will be doing another presentation at the end of the course on Thursday, so I’ll have to see if the shakes return or not. Speaking of which, I’m really forward to giving this presentation. I already know what I am going to do it on AND I’ve already written out about 3/4 of the material I’m going to present. We’ll be given time to work on it tomorrow, but I just had to get started on it today. Why, you ask? Because I’m a bit of an enthusiastic dork.
I’m going to attempt to get a good sleepy tonight and try to get my strength back. I also want to be in tip-top form to celebrate Abby’s birthday on Saturday – she’s going to be ONE!
Symptoms for Today: I started to feel really weak and “out of it” around 12:00. Actually, I haven’t felt quite like that in a long time and it made me nervous. I’m glad I didn’t exercise tonight and had a decent suppies! I’m sure I’ll feel much better tomorrow.
Lizzy McFly 